Who Am I?
My name is Empress Allison. I go by “Goddess” “Your Highness” or “Your Majesty”. I am excited to finally write out some things I’ve had rolling around in my head. Remember that my blogs are about my personal thoughts, feelings, experiences, and knowledge and in no way is it to reflect on anyone else as others may have a completely different set of circumstances, beliefs or personal codes of conduct.
Back in 2018 (which seems like 10 years ago), I had just finished up my sophomore year in college when I started sugar dating. I had heard about this website from several people and was curious to check it out. At this point I had zero knowledge of the adult industry and would have never predicted it to be my future career especially since I was in the midst of getting my BFA. I of course did not acknowledge this as sex work and didn’t until much later. I was very naive but also very intrigued. The idea of going on a date with someone and getting paid, wow! “Easy money” right? That's what all newbies think. Well, I quickly learned that no, this was not easy nor was it safe. Fast forward to 2019, I drew my last straw when one encounter landed me in the back of an ambulance. Needless to say, my family and friends were concerned about my safety and so I stopped.
By this point I had graduated and at the time I had worked the summer as a hostess at a rooftop bar in NYC (where I’m from), the first job I could land. When this all occurred, the summer was coming to a close and I was pretty much fed up with my day job. I spent hours on my feet in heels and a skimpy dress outside at a booth all day in a tourist area where lots of homeless liked to linger. Needless to say I was a prime target for catcalls and some uncomfortable interactions. On top of this, the management company was a mess and I was being way underpaid. Even though I worked almost every single day, I would walk away with a meelsy $200 bucks at the end of the week, $400 if I was lucky. I was ready to quit and I knew they were going to let me go anyways since I spent a large portion of my time on my phone (no regrets).
I knew I needed to find something else. Another girl I had worked with had been a dancer, and yes by dancer I mean stripper. I had also met a dancer during my beginning days of sugaring who suggested I work at a club. At the time, I was not ready for the night life as I’ve never been much of a party person and didn’t know if I could bring myself to do it. But a year had passed since then and after experiencing the monotony of a vanilla job I was ready for something more existing and profitable. Still I wasn’t sold 100%.
I left my hostess job and got a few unpaid internships to fill my time while job searching but after a while and no luck, I finally decided to take the leap. So, I started searching clubs in the city. I was looking for something very specific as I knew some clubs were more upscale and safer than others. One kept cropping up that I actually heard about from co-workers at my old hostess job, it was actually mentioned a few times by the security guards. From what I could tell it sounded great. So I looked it up, sent in my “application”, it's really just a photo of yourself, and they called me in. I was so nervous that I had a friend come with me. He waited outside when I went in. I was uncomfortable and unsure what to expect but the moment the manager sat me down and started talking, she was so warm and inviting and addressed all my worries. This club had a lot of rules that made me feel like it was a safe space. I know that some clubs are way to lax and allow certain things to happen that I would not be down with. I could tell right away, this was the kinda space I was looking for and the management cared about their girls. The other women in the orientation stayed but I left to think it over.
I started work that very week. Immediately I started making money hand over fist. It was the holiday season and as any dancer knows, those are the most profitable months. The first night I thought I had hit the jackpot. I made $400! Compared to my last paycheck, I couldn’t believe I had made that in one night. But when I excitedly told one of the guards upfront who had wished me luck earlier he said “that's not enough, you should be making more than that”. I’m not going to lie, hearing that on my first night as a bit of a buzzkill and my confidence was a little bruised. But he was right. By the end of the week I was making 2k nightly! I was able to pay off my debt and go on a vacation for my birthday. Everything was going great and I was just at the point of being able to save when BOOM! Covid 19 hit and everything shut down. Suddenly I went from making thousands to having $0 in income. Well we all know things went down from there, my roommate bailed on me and my mental health took a big hit. I decided since I couldn’t work, I would go out to my mothers beach house for a while. It was a great way to clear my head and I was lucky enough that she and my brother still had their jobs so they were able to supplement my rent in the meantime.
This didn’t stop me from panicking though. I’m always hard on myself but I especially hate taking money from family. I can’t handle the burden and the guilt that comes with it. I had no backup job, obviously no one was hiring and everyone was jumping on OnlyFans. I felt the pressure to join but I KNEW even at that point that my knowledge wasn’t transferable from dancing to selling myself online. This had actually been something I wanted to do before the pandemic hit but I had also banked on giving myself enough time to learn the ins and outs before advertising myself as a femdom/findom. I had never even had a twitter before. When others started making bank online it only fueled the pressure and made me even more anxious to start. I made a twitter but not an OnlyFans. I needed to suss out the scene. Of course, by then there was all that stigma about 2020 profiles and it wasn’t exactly a welcoming environment. It’s officially been a year since I started my twitter and even now I know I still have a lot to learn but I have also learned a lot too and I wanna share that. I take all of this very seriously and am determined to make my mark as I don’t plan on this being anything temporary. During the past year, I found myself loving this world and I knew that I was done looking for any “normal” jobs. This is where I belong and this is where I will stay. I want to bring you on my journey and see what we discover together.
EmpressxAllison / February 2021
